I guess I’ll be honest
Im only writing on medium because I think that one day it will make me hundreds of thousands of dollars.
I do not really care a whole lot about and all the hoopla that goes into marketing your writing and building an audience.
I just want to be able to spout my opinions about stuff and have people want to read it and then have someone pay me.
I think that I care about people and that I want them to enjoy what I write but the truth is I probably care more about my money than I do their benefit from my writing.
I guess what Im trying to say in all of this is that writing for me at one point was a way of letting my feelings out on the page and expressing myself.
But it was more of a journalistic style and it was not about trying to make money and now that all I can see is dollar signs I am struggling.
I want to pay off my student loans and get out of debt and all I can see is red.
Negative, negative, negative
It is soul crushing, especially when the job you work barely covers the bills and all your friends talk about is making money.
I know that if I can stick with this and keep producing value for my audience I can make it.
But I cannot let my ego and selfishness drown out wanting to help my audience.
I love gardening, nutrition, organization, cooking and meal prep.
My life revolved around these things during different periods and I have come to resent them in a way for reasons I will leave unmentioned for now. (Im still coming to terms with why.)
If I can tell you anything, do not let money be your god. It is cruel and it will destroy your relationships and keep you isolated so you can serve it and gripe to yourself about not having enough.
Until next time friends.
